The creepiest idol fan ever?

The look of a girl who has just seen someone she wants to spend the rest of her life with.

As you all know I’ve been a fan of idols for more than 10 years and in that time I’ve met some pretty batshit fans. I swear all clingy, delusional losers flock to idols. So I thought ______444(name omitted because he thrives off of attention and I’m afraid he might kill me and then himself(for real this time) if I mention him if he’s not already locked up in a mental institution that is)was bad but recently I think I’ve found a new person to claim the title. I wasn’t going to write this as I’m trying to be nicer these days but fuck it, I kept thinking about him. It’s impossible not to once you know what he’s like and frankly I feel like he got off too easily and not many people know what a creepy fuck he is. So that’s where I come in. He says that he will ignore the haters who don’t properly understand his love for Rainbow and Jisook so I guess he’s really telling me it’s okay to write this.

Now if you know me I love Rainbow. They are one of my favourite kpop groups. There’s this site called Visual Glow and I really love and appreciate the work they do. They are an excellent source for Rainbow information if you are a fan and if you follow me on tumblr basically any time I reblog Rainbow related photos or videos there’s a good chance it’s from Visual Glow. Now I’m not one of the people who gets super involved in communities because I don’t really care. I like finding people who I enjoy and relate to so I weed out idiots who I don’t care about. So I didn’t know who ran Visual Glow or who created and didn’t care. I respected what they did and left it at that. That was until Rainbow appeared on a certain show with Visual Glow staff. Truthfully I wish I didn’t know because it almost ruins their hard work for me and I don’t want it to.

There’s this show called After School Club(ASC) that airs on Arirang. The Arirang connection is enough to tell you that it’s a piece of shit but I will further embellish. It’s basically a live show where they host a guest and translate everything into English so everyone understands. There’s two hosts Hanbyul and Eric. They will proudly say that they are the first show ever to have interactions like this and are so unique and creative but that’s bullshit and they should be ashamed of themselves for saying that. It is in every way a horrid, scripted ripoff of the Gurupop Show with the best hosts ever, San E(who was formerly in JYP I will never let him forget it) and Daniel(who is a member of Dalmatian or DMTN because Dalmatian is embarrassing)who is mostly known for this. Gurupop is dead now and it’s really sad because I loved that site and the show and if anyone deserves success it’s them. But I guess that’s life, right? Not everything works out and all that’s left is ASC.

I’ll be honest, ASC is so terrible that I find it hard to bring myself to watch it. It streams at a bad time for me and the idols can’t make watching this snoozefest worth it. They do nothing but interact with fans and not in the way the Gurupop Show used to. This is live and scripted. This is awkward and boring as fuck and awkward. It’s great that they do this for fans and I really appreciate it but no one wants to watch idols mouth words. It’s not fun, disingenuous, and without heart. I wasn’t going to watch the Rainbow show either. But then Tommy Christopher happened. I watched the show and couldn’t believe what I was witnessing. My reaction was a mix of horror, disgust, and shock.

Basically.

They actually choose who to put through as well so it’s obvious that this psychotic freak only got through because of who he is. You see Tommy Christopher is the owner and creator of my beloved Visual Glow. You all need to watch this so I’ve linked the video and the Tommy Christopher part starts at 15:30.

I’ll recap a bit if you don’t want to watch but I think you really need to see it to believe it. Pictures only say so much and I mean your life would be ruined if you didn’t hear his heavy lustful breathing while he tries hard not to cum himself when he’s talking to Rainbow. I wish I could say this was my first time experiencing something like this but nope. Thanks idol fandom!

Anyway basically what happens is he appears and everyone is creeped out by him. I’m not even joking. Nobody even wanted him there, not Rainbow, not the hosts. It’s quite apparent.

First off he is the only old one there. That makes him stand out and in a bad way. Although he says “no one seems to believe me when I tell them my age LOL everyone thinks I am younger’ he looks 30+++. Now there’s nothing initially wrong with being old and you know sometimes I do feel bad for old guys who like idols because maybe they mightn’t be so bad. I know there’s lots of annoying fangirls who I want to kill because I hate them so much. They get a free pass because they are young and female but they are seriously some of the worst idols fans I’ve come across.

Personally I don’t care that much but really when you get a certain age people will wonder why you like this or that and there’s a point when it becomes unacceptable. Why are they doing this? Why don’t they get a girlfriend? You know this sort of thing. And again it’s not a casual fan type thing it’s an obsession. If you are a 12 year old with an obsession it’s okay because all 12 year olds are idiots but when you hit 30+ it’s starting to look sad. So if you are old and don’t want to be frowned upon you better look like Joongki, Keanu, Jared Leto or Bin Bons.

You’ll get lucky if you are a jpop fan because it’s basically all old men stanning lolis. But kpop is a different creature. Basically people the age of idols and younger enjoy them. The usual people that come on there are crying Malaysian girls or South American girls screaming at their oppas to come visit them. But no today it was Tommy Christopher.

At this point when Jisook is thanking him for Visual Glow(NOTE: not for being Tommy Christopher)she gives an extremely wide smile and starts batting her eyelashes at him.

Jaekyung after thanking him breaks into laughter and cute eye smiling for no reason. Then she moves her shoulders back and forth cutely.

These are not natural reactions. This is aegyo. It’s done to please and attract him. If a girl is truly interested in a guy imo she would never do this. I’m no expert in body language but I do think I know enough to know when someone is comfortable around someone or likes someone.

After the formalities this was basically Rainbow’s expression throughout. Unhappy and quiet. And yes I know they smiled occasionally and acted cute but it is their jobs to do that. And really if someone who looked like that at his age kept giggling,stuttering and breathing heavily would you want to interact with them? I don’t think so.

It’s important to note the posture difference. They are leaning forward and their posture is more relaxed. It’s a good sign to tell us that this is a more natural state. They are gorgeous girls but they don’t particularly have their best angles as they throw their heads back or forth while laughing. They are more relaxed and less concerned about keeping up the idol act.

Wait I guess I was wrong. They really seem happy here. Is it because of Tommy Christopher? Yes! Well it’s because the host was making fun of him. He asked for all of the members of Rainbow to follow the Visual Glow twitter account. So they agreed and Hanbyul said “They like you now. They didn’t really like you before but they do now. Make sure they don’t unfollow you.” And at that moment I died. Rainbow laughed too and honestly it was the biggest reaction I saw from them. It seemed real and not like their normal aegyo. It really speaks volumes about how they view him.

This was the best part of his time there. What a fuck up. Okay because they know what a creep he is DSP/Rainbow decided to fuel his psychotic delusions so he will keep promoting Rainbow internationally and give him several exclusive Rainbow items if he gets a few very, very easy questions right. They never do this in ASC so it was basically for that reason. He’s asked to name 3 of Rainbow’s song. Super easy right? Especially for the best Rainbow fan ever. No. He actually managed to fuck up so hard it astounds me. So he starts of with A. Good job Tommy that’s correct! But then the idiot means to say Mach but says MA-CHI. Um what is that? I’m sorry but you aren’t a super fan like you claim if you can’t even get their singles right. They have probably said it multiple times in introduction and bts videos. It’s priceless to see Rainbow’s faces drop when they don’t understand what he is saying and Hanbyul even asks “What was that?” but no he presses on with his heavy breathing and after he says “Sweet Dream and To Me” he giggles to himself for a job well done. So god damn awkward OH MY GOD.

I wish I could stop there but no there’s another gem.

Because he isn’t creepy enough he asks Rainbow to sing for him. If you know the song Sunshine, Rainbow has a line Go Jerry Go Jerry Go Jerry boy. He asks Rainbow to replace that with his name. Well that’s not scary at all! But that’s not all. No. Tommy Christopher starts stumbling over the words singing Sunshine and Rainbow are forced to sing Go Tommy Go Tommy Go Tommy boy with a smile on their face as if this is somehow a normal interaction.

I think the best tell that Rainbow hates him is when Tommy leaves how the atmosphere changes. The hosts stop making fun of the guest and everyone seems to be more relaxed. Rainbow stops doing a lot of aegyo. The first girl who translates for Visual Glow they even call cute. Where was Tommy Christopher’s compliment? Oh that’s right he didn’t get one.

Now she’s an adorable fan and one that Rainbow is lucky to have.

As well ASC had a recap episode a few weeks after and they practically showed everyone except Tommy Christopher talking to the idols they’ve had on the show. Why? Well we all know why. It’s because they didn’t want to advertise their show like that. It’s not a good image for ASC to put on freaks like him and even they wanted to forget it happened. I bet DSP asked them to get Tommy Christopher on the show tbh.

After this episode aired my friends and I weren’t the only people to notice how much of a creep Tommy was. From what I can remember he got a ton of hate and had a mini breakdown closing Visual Glow. But after a while he opened it again and was back to being his good old stalker self. Here he is trying to defend himself on the ASC show.

“Thinking that Ji Sook is lucky to have me as a fan, that I spoil her (and that your jealous of it haha) and thinking I am her best fan. Not making fun of my love and determination to win Ji Sook’s heart, but rather believe I can do it and ship SooMy ><

I’ll never understand why some of you are always like OMG when I respond to you though. I’m nothing special, but it is kinda cute. I’ll always be a expressive, appreciative, thankful open and honest person hehe.
After School Club was a nice beginning and helped lessen the wait, but it was also very limited as I couldn’t truly be myself on the show. The environment wasn’t entirely right because of the script I was given, the script Rainbow was given, the time of the show was early for me so I didn’t have much sleep, the show goes by so quick, ect. ect. nothing will beat the spazzy reaction Rainbow did when they noticed me during rehearsals because that was entirely off script and Rainbow got to be themselves without having to look at cards during the show.

One day I will meet Rainbow in person where I can be myself and Woo Ri will also be there. Remember she was missing on ASC so I have not truly met all of Rainbow just yet!! Sorry I write and ramble on alot I know I know.”

“nothing will beat the spazzy reaction Rainbow did when they noticed me during rehearsals because that was entirely off script ” Wow how unfortunate that was that he didn’t capture that moment. You might think I’m about to rip him apart for that but no I understand completely. You see just the other week I flew to Japan and had a wonderful time at a karaoke party with H!P, SMTown and Passpo. You won’t believe it when I tell you because it was the darnedest thing ever. All of the H!P girls were singing AKB songs! It was the greatest moment of my life but of course I couldn’t capture it, ugh GDI.

I’ve watched other episodes of ASC and there’s no excuse for the way he acted. I understand that someone meeting their favourite group is a big deal and they are probably going to be nervous and I expect that when I watch. However he was heavily breathing and sweating like he had just been in a marathon. Umm what even? Like I know he’s old but damn my 80 year old grandpa breathes better than that.  How did the cue cards impact it? Wouldn’t that help because they just have to be read? There’s no thinking with that. Even Rainbow who doesn’t know English could do it better than him. And he says the environment wasn’t right. Yeah okay, I wonder why. Maybe he should stop blaming the elements and just blame himself for being so awkward because the only problem there on that show was him.

You might think I’m being too harsh on the guy but nope. In fact he’s even worse on other sites. Just look at some of the tweets he makes.

Can you say delusional? And that’s not all. He used to have a thread on Visual Glow entitled The Soomy thread but it seems it was deleted as all mentions of Soomy. But you know what they say about the internet. So here’s a few things he wrote. This I believe is the original post in the Soomy thread if I recall correctly. I don’t know why he deleted it when he doesn’t care if people call him insane because he’s totally not but whatever here it is!

Why Ji Sook?

Someone asked me this, but I deleted the question by mistake.

When I first saw Jisook as a trainee under DSP around 2008 and rumored to be in Rainbow at the time, I thought she was cute and set my mind to her being my favorite member. Then I joined the Aurora 7 staff and was named the moderator of her section.

Upon Rainbow’s debut, Aurora 7 changed it’s name to Prismatic 7 and the Gossip Girl music video came out. It was after the music video I knew I made the right choice and since then I’ve been devoted to her. She’s never been budged from the top spot in my ranking. I’m entirely loyal to her throughout the years. Anyone who has known me for a long time has known how long I’ve been showing my love sololy for her. I’ve stuck through it all.

I care for all of Rainbow. They all mean alot to me and I love them all for different things. Just they don’t get that special feeling I have for Ji Sook. I love them more as beautiful sisters. My rank order has changed over the years. I think right now No Eul be 2nd, Yoon Hye 3rd and I got no clue after that LOL

I love Ji Sook for her personality. She’s cute, caring, creative, artistic, mischievous, always having fun, dorky, sincere, hardworking, sometimes a tomboy and more. She has a great bond with her family too. I love her handwriting too. I have horrible handwriting even though I love to write LOL I love her cooking and desserts too.

I would say my love for her has kept growing throughout the years. She has helped make me happy on a daily basis and got me out of some dark times. I owe so much to her as she’s really turned me around as a person.

Because of her doing I always believe whatever you set your mind to can happen and what is meant to be will happen. I’m usually a shy person and don’t want to try new things, but Ji Sook has the power to turn me around. Something no other girl or my family has ever had. Even my ex. I’ll do anything for her and she gives me confidence.

The happiness really started with her being fixed on SBS Youngstreet and has continued since.

After Gossip Girl/Not Your Girl promotions had ended, Rainbow went on a long hiatus. Prismatic 7 was dead until “A” came out. I was always alone, but Ji Sook got me through it with Youngstreet and Y-Star Top 10 News. I was a getting a bit spoiled with both programs being out at same time and involving her really LOL but yea that started the whole thing.

Over the years, I’ve given gifts to her and she has shared thankfulness back. It has really developed into a special bond between us.

I know I mean alot to her and since the days of Prismatic 7 all I’ve ever heard was ‘Tommy your such a different type of fanboy and Ji Sook is lucky to have you as a fan’ >_<

I do know Ji Sook considers me a precious fan of hers and that she got jealous over No Eul getting something from Visual Glow before her because well she knows I am creator. Part of the reason she supports our site so much is because of this too.

As for my username SookieBunnie, I originally made it back in March 2010 because Ji Sook always used bunnies as her Cyworld background. That is the original origin, but it has had several other instances that make the name it’s name even after it was created. The first tweet she sent to me was her laughing at a bunny gif I sent her. The first gift I ever gave her was a green plush bunny that I named after my username. So SookieBunnie has alot of history and meaning to it. Because it’s become so associated to the fandom I refuse to change it for that reason besides it’s history.

I feel like I already play the role of her supportive boyfriend by running a international fansite for her group, now only if she accept my heart and make it official LOL though no one would know because I’d remain quiet about it and act like I’ve always had prior ^^ I’m extremely protective of her and her family.

A few weeks ago I said Sookie will design our official logo you’ll see. Sure enough she now is going to do it. She asked for my e-mail. I dunno how she plans to e-mail me, but if it is her own e-mail, well I’m not giving it out for her own privacy.

One day Sookie will accept my heart you’ll see kekeke

I’m a extremely determined person and I go after my goals until they come true. Once my mind is set on something I’m basically a go getter and never give up until it happens.

This is why Visual Glow has been blessed alot of times in the past. When it comes to Rainbow, everytime I’ve set a goal I have seen it happen.

If Sunye in Wonder Girls can marry someone non-famous from Canada then why can’t I have something special with Ji Sook? 😛 We already have a special connection, so it can’t be counted out ^^

A little story. When I was my ex of almost 8 years before we were together, we were into roleplaying. We make up characters, pick a face, give them their own backstory and personalities, usually similar to our own. It was one day during a scene we were writing together that we started to feel emotions for each other and it blossomed into those nearly 8 years together. So I’ve had something like this happen before too LOL

Ji Sook and me are both expressive writers who like to share our emotions and thanks xD

Sometimes I feel like I’ve been doing this for the fandom for so long that bigger things are meant for me…

I am learning Korean for her and also know she enjoys foreign music and films…

Plus, we both like pizza (both of us can eat a whole one alone) and icecream!

I really don’t think anything can be counted out with my past, how I am in terms of determination, our already special connection, ect. ect.

I do know I’m her ultimate fanboy and can not be topped. Especially after so many years and after all I’ve done heh.

He really thinks he is the one for Jisook. I can’t. It’s so disgusting. Here’s my rebuttal to that delusional piece of shit.

Why Tommy Christopher?

• Because’s he rich.

Oh wait no he isn’t. As far as I know he has a job a Kmart or some minimum wage job. I’m pretty sure because he said he doesn’t have a degree and can’t afford a plane ticket. Now I’m not here to shit on people who work really hard and get paid nothing for it, I’m here to shit on Tommy Christopher who is delusional and thinks he has a chance with Jisook so please don’t take this the wrong way. If a girl had a choice between someone who was rich and not rich they will often go for the richer person. Of course money makes a guy attractive to a girl. That’s shallow but money makes people happy because they can buy what they want and there’s no stress involved. No one would object to their significant other getting a 100k raise.

So why should a girl as beautiful as Jisook settle for a lowly Kmart employee? She can do much better. Girls want doctors, lawyers, and engineers. People who can make a lot of money and treat them all of the time, not a person who makes
minimum wage and struggles to live.

• Because he’s attractive.

One of these things is not like the others, One of these things just doesn’t belong, Can you tell which thing is not like the others By the time I finish my song?

Again nope. Okay he’s not deformed or Benedict Cumberbatch but that’s not exactly a win. He has beady, Aika eyes and a ugly protruding nose that eats his face. And remember he is working his angles to look cute here. He probably looks like a cave troll irl. He looks constantly greasy and like he sniffs women’s underwear while giggling to himself like he did on ASC. Plus even though he says everyone says he looks younger than he is in a desperate attempt to fit in with other Kpop fans, he looks 40+. I don’t know if Jisook has daddy issues but looking old is probably a turn off for most girls and yeah I’ll be the first to say that there are hot guys who are older/look older but it sure isn’t him.

Jisook is an idol who is surrounded by beautiful, beautiful guys(girls? idk she could be gay too i’m not counting that out) with pretty faces and amazing bodies but no she wants to fuck some average guy. Yeah right. This right here is enough to confirm that he is completely crazy or maybe blind. How he has enough good taste to recognize how good looking Jisook is and not enough to see how bad looking he is, well it’s totally beyond me.

• Because he’s cool.

Okay I understand that being cool can do a lot for a girl. Look at GD and TOP. They are cocky and can put on the ugliest shit ever and make it work for them. But Tommy Christopher? I just said that he looks like he sniffs women’s underwear while giggling to himself like he did on ASC. That tells you what kind of person I think he is. A total loser.

• Because of his amazing personality.

• Because they have lots in common.

No. They are two different people who have different careers and paths in life. She’s an idol. How can he relate to that? To know what she deals with? He knows what she says she likes. So what? They’ve never met before and only have talked together because she was forced to because of Rainbow’s activities. It’s also not valid if he approaches her and they end up talking because she wants to keep her good image. And you know what? They can’t even have a conversation because they speak two different languages. It is crazy how Tommy thinks this is what Jisook would truly want. To not understand the love of her life. But I guess if he understood that he would have to admit that maybe just maybe Jisook would have no interest in fucking and marrying a loser who should be locked in a psych ward for life.

• Because he’s talented.

Sorry, being a great stalker does not qualify. I meant things like knowing multiple languages, being good at dancing, singing, rapping, playing instruments, writing, composing, etc. Hey aren’t those things idols do? Why yes I think they are. But no Jisook would not be attracted to them and content with gorgeous, talented boys who speak her own language and can relate to her, she needs Tommy Christopher.

• Because he’s a huge fan.

No one cares. But the nerve of him. He is seriously so disgusting and there’s nothing I hate more than a person who claims they are the number one fan of something and parade it around like they deserve some sort of fucking award. People like that should be burned alive and I doubt they even care about what they stan. Like there’s this fan of jpop and fuck, she changes her favourite group every month or so to whatever she thinks will make her better than everyone else. That’s not loving something that’s just being pathetic and desperate for attention. But oops I got off topic slightly.

Adding this picture mostly because of the Ship Soomy. lol What even? I would be embarrassed to write that. I don’t even know what to make of that because it’s probably the single most pathetic thing I’ve ever come across in my life. It’s akin to those people who give themselves nicknames and try to make slang happen. He is a grown ass man trying to get teenagers to ship him with Jisook to support his delusions. Nobody even ships people besides 12 year old girls wanting to see two guys fuck. And who ships themselves with someone in a serious manner? I want to set that disgusting ship to sea and sink it quicker than the Titanic. I just can’t get over his audacity to think that he is good enough for Jisook when not even an average woman would want him.

“If Sunye in Wonder Girls can marry someone non-famous from Canada then why can’t I have something special with Ji Sook?”

Oh seriously fuck off.

Okay yes Sunye got married to someone she met but he was far from am ugly loser with a shitty job who gets asked if he’s autistic and he was no delusional fan either who lives for Rainbow to say “We know when his name was mentioned” and their fake excitement. Sunye’s husband is attractive, he comes from a rich family. That’s not all, I can’t find the article exactly but I know that he’s very smart with a good education and I think he knows several languages. Plus he spends his life doing missionary work. he’s basically as close to perfect as you can get and someone girls would fight over to be with. Tommy Christopher’s only perk is that he’s alive.

See contrary to what Tommy Christopher believes, how normal relationship’s work is the guy and the girl have a mutual liking. The guy does not pick out the girl and she must accept because he really, really likes her and HE feels a “special” connection.

Which one would you rather be with?

Even though the James picture is blurry he is way more attractive than Tommy Christopher. And that’s just how he looks. We aren’t counting anything else. But no, Tommy Christopher thinks he’s comparable to James. What a joke. How is he not ashamed? I’m even getting tired of saying he’s pathetic because I’ve been saying it too much. I mean he’s not even the most fuckable out of these two people, how would he even compete with ten people let alone hundreds of thousands? But nooo Jisook would totally want him even though she’s spoiled for choice.

But I guess I’m just a jealous hater.

“I would like to send a special thank you to the following fans that I follow and talk to on Twitter.

You guys are all the best. Always supporting me. Always believing in me. Knowing I am not what some like to claim out of jealously and not knowing me well. Helping me when I need it the most and putting up with me.”

“I’m a new owner of Visual Glow now. The old Tommy who let his emotions get the best of him, who was too reactive and didn’t think straight during those reactions is no more. After my last episode of haters getting to me, I’ve realized there is more good then bad, especially after Rainbow’s reaction on Sound K and promoters starting to reach out to me. I have more love then I do hate.

As Rainbow and our site become more known, the hate will just grow of course, but it will never be defeated by the love. My love is a lie if I let them get to me. Especially since so many of them are younger then me, jealous and do not know me well or experience what we do to know. Too many rely on me in both Rainbow themselves and fans. I have alot of responsibility on my hands and I must hold up to it. Plus, me not being my energetic positive self is not good for anyone. Me, Rainbow, my staff, my friends, fans, ect. ect. I will do my best to fight for this fandom and remain my regular myself. I will not let negative influences be in my way or control me and my behavior anymore. Can not afford to let them.”

I don’t even know where to start with this. There’s just so much wrong with it.

“Especially since so many of them are younger then me, jealous and do not know me well or experience what we do to know.”

Um no. They are actually quite smart because some of them petitioned to get him restrained from Jisook. Meanwhile he is the one telling people to ship Soomy. He shouldn’t state that younger people don’t know better and are stupid if he’s almost 30 years old and way more immature than them.

And the fact that he thinks people are jealous of him kills me. I don’t think most people want to be known as a stalker of their favourite group and I also don’t think people want to be that person who harasses a group until they are forced to pay attention to him to keep a good image. For someone who says he is so mature, Tommy Christopher acts awfully immature. Jealousy is something your mother tells you people are when you are 6 and she wants to spare your feelings. Jealousy would be hating Tommy Christopher for talking to Rainbow. Jealousy is not just hating Tommy Christopher because he’s a creep and rightfully deserves it because of his actions. That fails to be jealousy because you are not envious of that person. To be jealous of just Tommy Christopher would mean that we are envious of his god-like beauty or his fabulous life as a rich socialite which lol no one is because it doesn’t fucking exist.

It’s funny that he thinks everyone is jealous of his success but fails to realize that no one cares about the other people that appeared on the ASC show. It’s a flaw in his logic but he thinks he can seduce Jisook so I’ll cut him some slack. He obviously just chooses to believe what suits him best regardless of if it’s reality or not. It’s not his connections or perks that people care about it’s the fact that he’s a psychotic freak. When people start insulting the Visual Glow staff as much as they do him I’ll see his side but we all know that it only happens to him because other staff members don’t give people a reason to hate them.

I personally don’t think hate is such a bad thing. Sometimes being hated is good. Or more like hate is deserved. Hate can be a way to tell you that you are doing something people don’t like. Whether you choose to do something about that and change yourself is up to you. But a lot of times I don’t think hate is unfounded especially when we are talking about IRL people and not idols. I think if you are a person like Tommy Christopher and gets a lot of hate it’s understandable. But he is too idiotic to realize or doesn’t want to accept that he is wrong and being a creep so he place the fault on everyone who judges him.

That’s fine, it’s perfectly his right to do so but the thing Tommy Christopher fails to get is that he can change how he thinks but reality is reality and until he changes he will always be that pathetic creepy guy to everyone including Rainbow and Jisook. Plus the longer he keeps this up the more people will view him as that person and the more he is damaging his own image. In fact I’m not even sure it can be saved now. Tommy Christopher thinks all of these people are against him but really it is only him hurting himself and Rainbow’s image and people are just trying to help him by telling him what a freak he is.

I feel so bad for Rainbow. They have this sad person attached to their name and that if you are a fan of Rainbow you will come in contact with him at some point. Tommy Christopher thinks that because Rainbow responds to him on shows and because they know of him and do aegyo means that they genuinely love him. I mean what does he expect them to do? Say that they hate him if they do? Would Tommy Christopher believe me if I said I love him? Because that would be a lie. I would hope not but you never know. How can he take Rainbow liking him as fact but ignore that they are paid to do this and have no other options?

It’s Rainbow’s job to do this. Whether they like to or not is something that they aren’t allowed to discuss. I notice that Rainbow tries very hard to keep all of their fans happy. Their fans support them and make them who they are. Without the fans they wouldn’t exist. They can’t keep making money or sing and dance if they don’t keep their fans happy. They aren’t allowed to pick and choose who they want to be their fans. They just have to grin and bear it even if all of their fans are psychos.

“For the last few weeks I have great conversations with a promoter. What originally started off as talking about bringing Rainbow to a K-Pop event grew into something larger. I’m happy for my conversations with them. They understand fans like myself really well. My passion, what I want to do, what type of fan I am, my love and dedication, my struggles with some rude fans, my love for Jisook, ect. ect. they just get me entirely and it’s been real nice to sit down and talk to them. I’ve had nice fans more so then rude ones over the years, but not many could quiet understand me and my motives and goals. Only a select few, so it was nice to find someone like them to talk to. They told me it’s amazing all I’ve achieved despite the language barrier.”

Of course businesses will support him. They will say they understand him perfectly and stress that he is not psychotic. Especially DSP. It’s great that Kpop companies will work with fans but it’s only because they understand that foreign fans are important and can be quite lucrative. Tommy Christopher owns Visual Glow and gives Rainbow free press so of course DSP(and Rainbow) wants to please him. Visual Glow is really the only fansite I can think of when it comes to Rainbow now. DSP cares about those fans, why? Well obviously because of money. That’s right. Fans are nothing but money makers to company. So as long as you are spending money they don’t care what you are like. If Visual Glow was shut down that would be very bad for DSP. Rainbow fans wouldn’t have any idea about what Rainbow was doing, etc. They might lose interest and DSP would lose money if these fans didn’t keep supporting them.

If Visual Glow was to cease existing it would be problematic for DSP and like I said they could lose money. Since they care about money more than anything they don’t care about Rainbow’s happiness. It’s as simple as that. And it can’t even be questioned because look at DSP’s track record. The successful acts leave the company and Kara tried to but were scared of being JYJed imo. I know how hard Kara suffered going back and forth between Japan and Korea and I don’t know how anyone can say DSP cares about their artists after that. There is working extremely hard and then there’s abuse. Plus Kara is DSP’s only big group and if they treated them like that then I don’t even want to see how they’d treat a smaller group like Rainbow. DSP doesn’t care if Rainbow has to entertain a few delusional fans who think they are in love.

I don’t have a problem which Tommy Christopher loving Jisook. I think loving someone or having a crush(which is probably the more appropriate term for this case) is a good thing. The world is terrible and you might as well make yourself happy. Loving someone can feel so great and motivate you to become a better person. There’s nothing wrong with that and if someone makes you more positive it certainly can’t be bad.

I don’t exactly know how to describe love properly but I think loving someone whether platonically or romantically is sheer happiness. It’s like when you see that person you couldn’t be happier and no matter what they do every little thing about them attracts you, enchants you. I don’t know what separates this from liking someone. Maybe a feeling of an intense connection? A belonging to that person? Does that makes sense?

Like you feel so connected to that person that when you are apart from them you can’t stop thinking about them because it not only feels like you have lost that person but a part of yourself. And there’s nothing you want more to be reunited because that person makes you so happy. That’s what I think love is but I guess you can define it however.

I couldn’t care less if someone dreams about marrying someone and spend the rest of their lives with that person or dreams about fucking someone all day and masturbates to the idea of it. It’s okay to do that as long as you see it for what it is and do not project your feelings on that person. Fair enough if you know the person you like and think they might like you back but we are talking about Tommy Christopher and an idol.

I do think it’s possible to love someone you’ve never met and when I think about it I can’t really deny that idol fans feel love towards their idols. You do have your casual fans but I know people who will literally spend 6 hours+++ stalking and talking about the person they like. I can’t say that what the feel isn’t love because to be honest I’ve seen couples less dedicated to each other than fans to their idols.

But usually fans will realize that this kind of love is one sided and they also realize the best thing that can happen to them is that they see their oppas at a fansigning. Sure they might dream about it before it happens and think that they will be different. They might think that they will attract him because of the bond they feel and he will somehow secretly signal his love right then and there. But we all know that when they get there that they’ll be met will the cold harsh reality that they are just a fan, a nobody to their love and that person they adored might even ignore/hate them.

This is why when you love an idol it should be entirely selfless. When you are expecting something to come out of it you are setting that relationship up for failure(unless you are hot girl and want to fuck 2pm or get choked by Seungri oppar that is)because nothing is going to happen and that relationship is going absolutely nowhere. That person you love is a figment of your imagination and the thoughts and ideas you impress on whoever they like.

Tommy Christopher’s disregard for this frankly disgusts me. It’s persistent and gross. The way he phrases things sounds like he seriously believes that one day if he tries hard enough, Jisook will love him. This is disregarding that Jisook is a person with ideas of her own and only taking into consideration what Tommy Christopher desires which is so not okay. If he actually cared about Jisook wanted he would back off and stop being a fan of Rainbow so he wouldn’t taint them. But again the problem with this is Tommy helps promote Rainbow so Rainbow needs him. I’m sure he knows this too which makes it even more cringeworthy because again Jisook has to be nice to him and can’t tell him to go away. It’s essentially a very smart way to trap Rainbow into paying attention to him. He became important and dedicated to get what he wanted.

Without Visual Glow he would be a nobody. Tommy Christopher works hard on Visual Glow because he wants to get noticed by Rainbow so he get more points from Jisook. If he wanted a true love from Jisook why should he have to work so hard running her pr unit? It’s ridiculous. By that logic she would hate him if he gave it up and that’s not love. That’s a pathetic attempt at trying to force someone to love him by impressing her because if she really wanted to get to know him she would have made the effort. AND NO SENDING GIFTS TO HER AND CALLING IT A SPECIAL BOND YOU SHARE DOES NOT FUCKING COUNT.

I’ve been rambling on for long enough so I’ll shut up soon but something about this is so horrific and off. He can want what he wants but to deny the reality of the situation is what scares me. I feel like if he had the opportunity he’d try to get her to love him no matter what. I don’t know if any of you like myself are 80 years old and watch old movies but I do and it seriously reminds of one of my favourite movies, The Collector(which is based on the novel). What happens is that this guy chloroforms this beautiful girl and locks her in a room because he is in love with her and wants her to fall in love with him but obviously she doesn’t want to because he’s a freak and you can’t force a woman to love you. This sounds exactly like something Tommy Christopher would do, he’s exactly like that guy in every way except that Terrance Stamp is attractive. I’m seriously scared for Jisook. Girl get yourself a restraining order against him.

Tags: gurl get a restraining order, i'm getting denko op vibes (´･ω･`), i'm sorry that this is so long, i'm sure an english major would shoot me for writing like this but oh well, jisook, rainbow

• August 7, 2013
• KPOP
• 63 Comments